Crying

I feel like crying and don't know why. I know that is a bad thing and it makes me want to cry even more. God to day is a defonet bipoler day. Yesterday i found out mom might have cancer... ya the big one. I was fine last night but i think its starting to hit me. I feel like shit because when she found out i was haveing fun with my freinds and i had canseld plans with her to do it. You know the depreshon camershal "depreshon hurts every where" well i know i could defonitly use a vike. right now.