for the love of me!

OK!!!!!! i get that some guys are more emotinal then others, but if we've been dating for only two weeks the L word is off limits. ok... i really like you too, but come on you know its not love yet, maybe in a couple of mounths or years... but give me more then two weeks to fall in love with you!... that is what i wanted to say but all i said was "I love you too."

happy, happy, joy, joy

I am soooooooo happy right now John and Amanda(my best freind and my boyfreind) are comeing over tonight! sooooooooo exsited... i only get to see him mondays or tusedays and thursdays he visits me at lunch. He said the L word last night... wha i know...its been two weeks but it sounded really good. I miss him way more than what i should, or what is resonable... who knows it just be love... *que the music* i'll let his ears stop ringing and let you go bye

Crying

I feel like crying and don't know why. I know that is a bad thing and it makes me want to cry even more. God to day is a defonet bipoler day. Yesterday i found out mom might have cancer... ya the big one. I was fine last night but i think its starting to hit me. I feel like shit because when she found out i was haveing fun with my freinds and i had canseld plans with her to do it. You know the depreshon camershal "depreshon hurts every where" well i know i could defonitly use a vike. right now.

so happy with my liveing undead boy

you will almost never see me as happy as i am right now(tech. you are reading how happy i am) and never will i use this pink agen. BUT I AM HAPPY !!!!!!!!!!!!!